Dear Emma Grace,

At this moment, four years ago I was working through some pretty good-sized contractions, thanking God that despite some pre-term labor scares, we had managed to keep you in your little cocoon until you had reached 38 weeks. I was also wondering if it was possible to keep you in for another 38 weeks.

I was so scared.

I was just so unconvinced that I was ready to be a mommy. I was so worried that I wouldn’t know what to do or what to say or how to raise you into a smart, productive member of society.

And four years later, even after having practice with you, and now your sister, too…I still don’t know what the heck I’m doing. I’m still scared. There are many days that I’m not sure I can be a good mommy. And I’m constantly questioning my ability to challenge you and nurture you into an upstanding young lady.

But I do know one thing – I wouldn’t trade one moment of it for anything. You have given your Daddy and I so much happiness and joy, we simply cannot imagine life without you. You have also made me a more patient person (well, at least a little more than I used to be). You have helped me to stop and experience the little things in life, the important things. And you have challenged me to be the best mommy I can be.

As I watch you grow into a charming, funny and sweet little girl I can’t help but feel so proud that you are my daughter. And with your new house, your new school, and your new friends, I just know you are going to have your best year yet. I am so happy to be here to experience it along with you.

Happy Birthday Sweet Gracie.
I love you,
Mommy