{"id":1812,"date":"2009-08-03T01:00:57","date_gmt":"2009-08-03T08:00:57","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/barelycontrolledchaos.com\/wordpress\/?p=1812"},"modified":"2009-08-02T21:48:27","modified_gmt":"2009-08-03T04:48:27","slug":"my-first-baby-best-shot-monday","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/barelycontrolledchaos.com\/wordpress\/?p=1812","title":{"rendered":"My First Baby ~ Best Shot Monday"},"content":{"rendered":"

I realize that Chaos has been kinda “Addie-heavy” around here lately. This became pretty apparent as I was flipping through photos and I had about 20 “keepers” of Ad, but far fewer of Em. And lately our Flickr photos<\/a> is just one long stream of Addison sprinkled with an Emma or two here and there. So I’ve been sitting here trying to figure out this trend, I mean Emma is here<\/strong><\/em>. She is around<\/strong><\/em>.<\/p>\n

And all I can come up with is…she just doesn’t seem to need me so much. She’s testing out her wings which just doesn’t involve Mommy.<\/p>\n

“Can I just read these books on my own?” <\/em>she’ll ask as I’m turning out her lights.
\n“Can I go play pbskids on the computer? – No it is okay, I can do it myself, Mama!”
\n“Nah, I don’t really want to go for a bike ride, I’ll just stay here with Daddy.”
\n“Can I go play with Audrey. No without you. You can drop me off?”<\/em>
\nWhen I asked her if she wanted to go to the beach tomorrow, she said “Yeah! Who is going with us?”
\n(<\/em>Because she can’t go to the beach with just her Mom?)<\/p>\n

She just seems so old<\/strong>. Mature<\/strong>. Thirteen already!<\/strong>
\nAnd as she is off doing all the big, independent six-year old things – without me – I guess I must have just turned the camera and attention to Addie instead.<\/p>\n

But while we were walking through a store last night, I felt Em’s soft, little hand reach up for mine. We wandered around, her hand in mine, as she pointed out all kinds of things that she thinks we need <\/em>at home. I looked down to my favorite sweet spot on the top of her head, and there, under a bunch of blue hair glitter, I found my little girl. Looking up expectantly at me, willing me to just listen to her. In that moment I realized she may be careening towards becoming a big girl, but she will always be my first baby. She will always need me patiently waiting for her, for when she gets tired of flying out on her own.<\/p>\n

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